ontherocks

You are more than you think, you deserve to be loved, you deserve to be happy and joyful, you deserve to have everything you need in life. Never ever think that you are less deserving in any way. You do not need to shrink yourself up for anyone, be unapologetic for doing the right thing, even if it is wrong in the eyes of others. In the end you are only answerable to you and the tiny voice in your heart. Life sweeps you away in directions that you never even knew existed. It's all coming along. Be you, be the best, kind hearted, beautiful version of you as possible​, even if you think you have reached where you are meant to be, don't stop working. Nothing in life is ever given simply. Work hard to be who you are.

Darling, do not be tempted to define yourself under one definition. Each day you grow a little, change a little and that's life. No one in this entire world can be just the same,ever. You improve yourself, you have your ups and your downs and sometimes you find yourself in the middle.Each day you grow your wings a little and one day you will be able to soar high.

She never wore her heart on her sleeves, afraid that some might break it, afraid that they might figure the mystery that she was. She always seemed to be wearing a thick cloak , that prevented the other from deciphering her, the mystery that she was clumsy and a chaotic mess. Some might misunderstand her to be broken and that she needed fixing. And only a few saw the light shining from within those cracks,  the light that no one could deny.

I have been body shamed , not once but many times and I have lost  count of it. I have been body shamed by strangers, friends, close relatives and many even when I was a child. I am not asking for this, I have never asked to be what they would call "a fat person", I did not choose this.   When a person meets me after sometime rather than asking me how I have been, the resolve to ask me ,no thrown it at my face " you are fat, you are over weight, you are a fat person" and i try my best to just not think much about it but I simply can't.  My friends have mocked me telling each other that I have gained weight, even though I am standing in front of them and not even to me, they are discussing this just like they are discussing the weather. These people might have a sort of satisfaction when they immediately find flaws in others. But the person who is hearing this even though they try their hardest ,might not be able to remove it from their mind. It just sticks on t

My life is divided into two eras. One "before you", the other "with you". The time "before you "shaped me to be who I am for the coming years "with you". It made me travel through the all those places that I never wanted to be in. It made me stronger than ever before. The time "with you" almost made all those things disappear into thin air, almost.. I'm pretty sure even if those things reoccur it wouldn't break me up anymore. I sort of developed a thick skin overtime. I'm sure you would have loved me even before but I wouldn't have been in love with me.