ontherocks

When you were a kid, you were innocent. You didn't know what is what. You were oblivious to everything. Everything was new, and nothing hurt you. You were oblivious to the pain, you didn't know what heartache was and you didn't need to know. You were happy, no one told you to be like this or to be like that. You could have been anyone you wanted to be a superhero or anything that you wished for. Everyone was your best friend. You had best friends in almost all the classes you have been too. Kids were not mean back then. Cue to the time you were a teenager. Everything is new. You feel like you want to fit in. You only have a certain set of friends. You tend to do everything with them. Your family is out to get you. Your friends are your real family and your family not so much. You think, no you are sure your family does not understand you. "They don't understand me the way my best friend understands me" that was your motto. All that juicy gossip just tend to f...

Do you ever feel as though you have thick walls on either side of you? Do you feel as though if you ease yourself up, let go and breathe, that the walls might crush you? This is what I feel most of the time. I feel that I cannot breathe freely as much as I want. I am constantly anxious about my surroundings, the way that I look, the way that I walk. I feel as though I have to contain myself.  I cannot show myself too much, what if they don't like me for who I am? I have no idea why I would want to feel this way, but this is what I feel. Each and everyone one of us suffers from some form of anxiety. On the surface, they might look as though everything is fine and everything might actually be fine but this might actually be what they feel. This is hard enough for me to explain and sometimes might actually be hard for the other person to understand. Just know that what you see on the surface is not all that is to that person. Be kind, maybe they might ask for help, maybe they don...